I CAN'T FUCKING SWIM IN AN OPEN BIG SEA!
Ever since I almost drowned few years back, I dared not swim again. Today, the sight of me drowning, keep flashing in my head while swimming back. I panick and struggled because I couldn't swim at all. I just simply get scolded by my team mates cuz im a loser.
Yes, my fault. It's always my fault. For the unstability, capsizing, tilting, wrong technique, powerless stroke, not coordinating, and everything else. I'm sorry, I'm just so not fit for this sport. Be it on a k2 or k4, I'm useless. All of you are right, maybe I'm just a "spare tyre" or whatever you all call it.
I'M SORRY. IT'S ALWAYS MY FAULT. just scold me or shout at me thanks.