Happy 20th Birthday, Han Lin! I know you will not be reading this obviously so I decided to wish you here. Very much I would like to wish you but I do not have the courage, I'm a loser I'm sorry. I know doing this might jeopardise my current relationship but I don't wish to surpress it anymore.
You were my first love while I am yours too. You were the one that taught me to love and you loved me unconditionally. Knowing that, I took you for granted. Yeah, call me a loser. For the 1 year plus that we were together, from studying at mac (that's how we started) to hide and seek (I climb to your house roof top, nearly rolled down) to late night soccer match (with your mum) to camping (with your siblings) to bulding sand castle. We meet almost every single day and you never fail to ride me home using your bicycle. By the time we were at the upward slope, you were already panting like mad, haha.
Even though this was 4 years ago, I can't help but miss you. To be honest, after our relationship, I have not been serious or rather I cannot commit myself in other relationship anymore. Today, I have gotten myself back on track again, thankfully.
The confession book which you had spent weeks doing in order to give me on my birthday, I will keep it forever. Whenever I read it, my tears just fall uncontrolllably. Questions will then filled my mind again and again, why I didn't cherish you back then? Why did I take you for granted? The neo prints that we took on every monthly anniversary, even until today the ten over neo prints are kept safely with me.
You have moved on, I have also moved on. I know you never have another girlfriend after me. I guessed we never really moved on. And I never wanna say goodbye.
